one time it rained at night

me and meg were watching we bought a zoo (which is a lovely movie that has AMAZING music in it) last night. it's tradition. every weekend we watch a movie out on the couches and sleep out there. anyways i glanced outside and saw that it was raining! so naturally we decided to go have an adventure :) we were out there for literally about an hour and just walked around in a circle in nauvoo's parking lot. lots of people were out on their balconies watching the rain/us but hey it was fun!!

no words

it's quickly becoming apparently that i am going to miss byui more than i can even imagine. i have made so many amazing friends that have been such an influence on my life and changed me forever. i have no doubt in my mind that this is exactly where i was supposed to be at this time of my life. i had absolutely no desire to be here at the beginning of the semester and it felt like this was such a mistake so many times throughout but now as there is only one week left, it is hitting me just how much my life has been impacted and how much i am going to miss being here. i feel like i will be missing out on so much! it kills me to think about it. i know that i will definitely be coming and visiting around every month if i can but at least every other. i don't want to per say be in IF but surprisingly in rexburg of all places. i don't want to lose touch with anyone here. i know that i will have a wonderful time in st george and that that is the place where i am supposed to be next. i need to be able to work to be able to continue my education and it will be nice to just have a break to clear my head and really focus on who i want to become. and since rexburg still feels like i haven't even moved away from home, i know it'll be great. i also know with all my heart that i will be back. i know where i'm going to finish my schooling. as much as i don't want to admit it, i LOVE it here. it is amazing how much my opinion has changed just because i lived with people that actually cared about me and was surrounded with absolutely amazing people. it is a complete reversal. march seems like forever away but hey if i'm having fun, it'll fly by! i cannot wait to see what adventures are waiting for me.
to my roommates (especially meg), my fhe brothers (especially hunter and john), all the girls in my ward (especially the girls from 406), and all the other people that have made this semester so amazing, consider this a formal thank you from me. you will never know the impact you have made on me and i cannot even express how grateful i am for each and everyone of you! i will miss each and every one of you so much and cannot wait to see you when i visit or even in the spring. i love you all.

countdown to the sun

i think the last two weeks of  semester have the potential to be the worst. nobody wants to be here anymore because they just want school to be over and to be home or where ever for a while. everyone is sick to death of their roommates (especially girls. we are not meant to live together i swear). i am just so excited to finally be doing what i've felt like doing since fall semester ended. i have so much to accomplish in the 10 days of school and 20 days till i move to basically a whole different world. aaahhhh!

i can breath again

i am so glad this week is over! it was definitely the most stressful of the whole semester so far. i had two test, psychology and science, a project for ED200, and a 10 page paper due in FD201. plus it was the 4th of july so i was gone for two days out of the week. and i made it!! i got everything done! i did have to stay up till around 4 every night but i got it all done.
i almost didn't go home for the 4th because of everything i had to do but in the end i was really glad i did. i went home with my roommate meg which made things even more fun. we woke up early on wednesday and got to get out on ririe lake. it was a blast! i got to wakeboard again and i am finally learning how to steer the board.

After that, we went and played frisbee for a while and had some lunch. then we went to the river and just hung out. it was wonderful. i do love IF no matter how much i would love to leave it just for a while. the fireworks were good but not as amazing as other years. i videoed the finale and ya it's sideways but here it is anyways.

we also lit off fireworks on the 5th with some friends. it was so much fun.

 altogether it was just a crazy week and i am so glad that i was able to make it though. now i just need to focus on moving to st george! :)

overdue for a new adventure

i feel like my life is just so conflicted and today it is all coming down on me. it is always just a struggle between the two sides of my life and it absolutely kills me. i don't really know why i'm having such a hard time with it all today cause usually i am totally fine. maybe it's just cause of how stressed i am. my needing to move keeps getting worse and worse. now it isn't for my original reasons but just to make a clean break to decide what i want to do in life. because at home i cannot do that and here at school i cannot do that. it's not like how it is for the kids that come from all over the country to go to school here. this is basically still like my home and i feel like my parents still won't let me go. moving isn't something i feel like i just want to do anymore, it's become something i have to do. i need to figure out my life without any of the influences that i have had in my life. i need a fresh start on my own. 4 weeks and counting. please keep your fingers crossed and keep me in your prayers that i will find what i need to in these next months. that my life will become what it needs to.