bummed

bad news. i can't donate on account of my veins are too small. i got told to drink more water and then turned away. i drink water like crazy. i have for the last almost 6 or so months but i have to be super careful because the more i drink, the less i eat and i've been doing good with at least balancing the two but idk i guess not. this really upset me for two reasons. i need the money. like waaay bad. because of my car wreck, i had to pay a ton of money that i needed for school. i was also looking to buy a car for when i go up to school because i am going to be so far away from the grocery store etc and didn't want to walk and plus it'd be so nice. my phone is also over a year old and i mean i'm fine with that except for the fact that half the time, it doesn't work which is kind of an issue. the second reason why i'm so frustrated is because i feel like my goal is impossible now. i was trying so hard to eat right and do everything right so i could do this and feel like i was healthy enough to do so but now i don't know. it's just really not so much fun...