here we go again

i am moving into my apartment tomorrow. this makes number 6 move this year. last september i moved to rexburg, back to IF in december, back to rexburg in april, IF in july for a week, i've been with my sister and her family for a month and now i'm moving to st george to live with some girls my own age for the next seven months. do you know how scary seven months can seem after not living somewhere for longer than 4 months for the last year?! it is probably one of the scariest things i can think of. it is way more permanent then i know what to do with. i'm used to just thinking well if this doesn't work out, i'll be out of here soon. but that isn't the case here! it also stresses me out to think about trying to find people to hang out with because that would be an awfully long time to go without any fun. and living with the same girls for that long? that scares me.... i have such a hard time living with girls! it will always be my philosophy that girls are NOT meant to live together. at least this girl isn't. i'm not going to pack or anything tonight. just enjoy my last night being here and worry about it in the morning. i've got all day. please everyone pray that my stress has all been in vain.
i tell you one thing being down here has made me miss rexburg more than anything. i was so unsure about it last semester and being in IF never really helped that. it's easy to hate on rexburg when you're not there. unless you're in southern utah. then rexburg calls to you so bad that it literally hurts. especially once you hear about everyone you left having such a great time and getting to go to school. i miss going to classes. i really do love learning no matter how much i like to dislike it sometimes haha. and i wouldn't trade going to BYUI for anything. i am not your typical student by any means and of course i have my struggles there but it is an amazing place. the people there are like nowhere else. you cannot find such amazing people and friends anywhere else and the longer i'm away, the more i realize this. i just want to go and never leave haha. luckily for me i am headed up that way in the middle of novemeber. i could not be more excited. i am already counting down the days. especially because that will mark the halfway point :). i know if i can handle till novemeber, i can get a short break and then push on until april and then i get to go HOME. don't get me wrong, i love being at natalie and jeff's house and i could not be more grateful that they have let me stay here, i just realize that this area is not my home. i have a sense of belonging in rexburg. so i work as hard as i can and just wait. i'll be home soon enough :)